Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Big girl dun cry..


Mlm yang sangat sedih bagi aku..aku tau ini perasaan sahaja jgn d layan sgt..tp perasaan tu la yang wat aku hidup and tabah..jauh dalam sudut hati aku ini,aku maseh sayang akan die...
aku maseh mengharap detik2 kitaorg utk bersama semula,yes i was waiting 4 u 2..jgn la die kata die sorg je barai,aku barai xde sp yg tau. perasaan ini la yg teman aku nanges tiap2 mlm dan meghitung bp lama kitaorg dh putus..
aku try ubah cara idup aku dengan bersosial ngn org yang aku xpnh berckp pn,aku try atasi kesedihan yang maha saket ini..mungkin die nmpk aku xsedey happy je kn?..luaran suma org leh judge,hati?perasaan ini? aku yang xcukup kuat ni la yg tggung sorg2 tau,tp xpe aku xnk die tau pn saket aku ke mati aku ke,aku tekad mlm ini,aku akn terus pergi dan terbang jaoh dari byg2 die,wlpn aku tau aku xmampu! shit! come on saeda u dh besar! grow up plz,jgn nanges2 dh..yes u can do it baby..
Die rampas suma dlm hidup aku,smpai aku jth tersungkur, aku bgn aku sedar ini salah aku selama 2 thn ni..aku tabah kn hati dan aku terus kn perjalanan hidup aku ini,aku percaya tuhan leh membaca isi hati aku,dan aku mendapat die dlm hidup aku.die happy kn aku dlm saat kesedihan aku,die layan kerenah aku,die phm aku,tp aku still xleh tima die sbgai teman hidup aku.aku sgt rindu saat lama aku,aku maseh tidak berdaya utk mbuang nya.ya allh tlg lah hamba mu yg lemah ini..
mlm ni rasa itu dtg lg,aku juz bertny kn u still want ur kity? then he said no thx u can hv it..p2 trus 0ff9..im juz like wow! owh ok..i juz like to said like i want u..thnks 4 u..u wt i lg kuat utk mmbenci u.dats it.

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Dream of..

Today m so bored...
feeling not so good,so hungry,so messy,soo soo bored!

suddenly,


i was thinking about dis building!

I WANT TO BE IN THERE!!!
:-(

the place so romantic 4 couple,so calm,so nice view.
can somebody be my partner and purpose me under this building?
i will love him forever! hakhakhak..

dis is my dream about..is all about PARIS..<3

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Enough.




Rasa itu datang lagi..:-(

cukup penat nk harung lagi sekali..

I cried today...
not because I missed you
or even wanted you
but because I finally realized
I'm going to be alright without you

Monday, May 10, 2010

10 May 2010


Bertarikh 10 May 2010 maka cukup 2 bulan aku break ngn si die. saket beb mmg saket!
Tuhan je yg tau perasaan aku. Semua org bleh lihat zahir aku yg agak happy ini,tp hakikat die hanya aku sja yg tanggung. Tapi nk wt cm na kn? Aku xmintak nk jd cm ni,nk xnk kena la kuat kn? "YEA,i know u leh wt saeda!"
Hari makin hari berlalu,aku mmg mengharap kn perubahan si die,tp makin teruk lg adala.
Hati aku jd makin keras utk berubah,sory to say. Hati ini semakin sukar utk percya laki n terima org ketiga dlm hubgan. kenapa la ko wt aku cm ni?? saket tau x?huh..
xpe aku tima je semua ko wt kt aku..aku dh present terbaek utk ko,harap ko bhgia dlm hidup ko.

YEA DH 2BLN...

hatisgtsedeysgt2.

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

Part of the list!

Style of your hair,
shape of your eyes and your nose,
the way you stare
As if you see, right through to my soul,

It's your left hand and the way
that it's not quite as big as your right,
the way you stand in the mirror
before we go out at night,

Our quiet time,
your beautiful mind,

They're a part of the list.
Things that I miss.
Things like your funny little laugh,
the way you smile or the way we kiss.

What I noticed is this:
I come up with
something new, every single time
that I sit and reminisce.

The way you sweet smell
lingers when you leave a room,
(you leave a room)
Stories you tell as we lay
in bed all afternoon.
(all afternoon)

I dreamed you now every night
in my mind is where we meet.
(my mind is where we meet)
and when I'm awake
staring at pictures of you asleep.

Touching your face,
invading you space.

Oooh, and you'll live in my memories forever more I swear.
And you'll live in my memories forever more I swear.

They're a part of the list.
Things that I miss.
Things like your funny little laugh,
the way you smile, or the way we kiss.

What I noticed is this:
I come up with
something new, every single time
that I sit and reminisce.